As I’ve mentioned before, because Li-Fraumeni Syndrome is an autosomal dominate genetic mutation, I risk passing it onto our children. However, IVF allows for us to do genetic testing to ensure healthy embryos.
Well, we recently wrapped up our first round of IVF. I wish I could be sitting here typing about all the healthy embryos we came out with. However, we unfortunately ended up with zero embryos. None, zero, ziltch, nada. It was a complete failure.
This was a tough pill to swallow. I’ve been through my fair share of hardships in life, but let me tell you, this one hit differently. I’m not sure if it’s because of how badly we want to become parents and how sure I am that we deserve this. I’m not sure if it’s because of the physical toll it took on my body to give myself 3-4 injections a day for two weeks. I’m not sure if it’s the mental and emotional toll it takes on you. I’m not sure if it’s the $25,000 we quite literally flushed down the toilet because insurance covered nothing.
It’s probably a combination of all of those things, and the fact that I really did think it was my turn to catch a break. I was so hopeful. We were so hopeful.
I am sad and angry. Another mountain to climb. Another hand dealt that did not end favorably. I’m no stranger to these things. I know it’s just another bump in the road and part of our story, and just like all the other times, we’ll get through it.
That said, we’ve decided to move forward with another round of IVF. Here’s to hoping we finally have some luck thrown our way. Please send us all the prayers and good vibes. We need them!
I’ll be posting more in the coming weeks wrapping up all things IVF round one, so stay tuned!